♥! How lovely and sweet to get such a wonderful long considerate comment from someone I've only traded a few words with; it's warmed me to the proverbial cockles of my heart (have they anything to do with cockle-shells, I wonder?). And it was also very helpful to get an actress' view on things. (Excuse the stiffness; I'm horrifically sleepy and would be making dreadful typographical errors if it weren't for Firefox spellchecking my every word!)
Alas, our theatre is so small, and so...having stuff only every three months or so, that it'll be a long while before there's anything else to audition for -- I just need so terribly to be busy in a comfortable, moderately useful way. (Have been trying to procure employment without success, alas! -- because money would be very nice.) I'm still going to try for stage crew, which wouldn't be as fun or as busy and I don't think they'll need stage crew for some time yet, but it'll be something, and I can still be involved. Because if I don't get involved somehow the whole thing's going to be tainted with the bad taste of not getting cast -- it'll be years before I can watch the film or read Oliver Twist, which is very silly and emotional, but there you have it. ;p
I absolutely hear you about planning everything in my head -- I do this with everything, and it always ends badly! (Did you ever read I Capture the Castle? The protagonist, Cassandra Mortmain, put forth the theory that if one does indulge in imagining out a situation, it will never come to pass, or at least not remotely the way it was imagined. I'm beginning to believe this is true!)
Anyway, thank you so much, and I do feel rather better today. I can't manage to be completely glum for long stretches of time, which is probably some sort of psychological self-defense, though sometimes it is very annoying as I want to stay vexed or romantically gloomy! :D But I can't stay unhappy when there's a lovely harvest moon, or while reading Susanna Clarke and gallivanting with my chums!
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Date: 2007-09-29 03:51 am (UTC)Alas, our theatre is so small, and so...having stuff only every three months or so, that it'll be a long while before there's anything else to audition for -- I just need so terribly to be busy in a comfortable, moderately useful way. (Have been trying to procure employment without success, alas! -- because money would be very nice.) I'm still going to try for stage crew, which wouldn't be as fun or as busy and I don't think they'll need stage crew for some time yet, but it'll be something, and I can still be involved. Because if I don't get involved somehow the whole thing's going to be tainted with the bad taste of not getting cast -- it'll be years before I can watch the film or read Oliver Twist, which is very silly and emotional, but there you have it. ;p
I absolutely hear you about planning everything in my head -- I do this with everything, and it always ends badly! (Did you ever read I Capture the Castle? The protagonist, Cassandra Mortmain, put forth the theory that if one does indulge in imagining out a situation, it will never come to pass, or at least not remotely the way it was imagined. I'm beginning to believe this is true!)
Anyway, thank you so much, and I do feel rather better today. I can't manage to be completely glum for long stretches of time, which is probably some sort of psychological self-defense, though sometimes it is very annoying as I want to stay vexed or romantically gloomy! :D But I can't stay unhappy when there's a lovely harvest moon, or while reading Susanna Clarke and gallivanting with my chums!