some monday babbling

[ontology]

Feeling mostly less horrible today, although physically it has not been good at all. Hurrah, more random nausea! And a headache, which hasn't quite gone away yet. I don't mind headaches so much, though, as I've been dealing with them for years, and anyway the caffeine in my headache medication makes me clear-headed and rather cheery for a while. (This also means I will be up late. How unusual.) Mum has been shopping, so there are chocolate chips in the freezer. I dropped off a couple of job applications this afternoon, tried on a dress I may purchase (it is blue-green and knit with buttons and pockets), bought a pair of orange button earrings, and dropped by the Nielsons, where I hung out with Victoria and Jonathan, and received word that there is indeed hope for my computer.

Eventually I need to post about SPN and why I heart it. Er...I could open the floor for Sam-and-Dean-related questions? (That is half serious, mind you.)

Speaking of questions, a meme from lightofjudah

1. Leave me a comment saying, “Interview me.”
2. I will respond by asking you 5 questions of a very personal nature.
3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this and an offer to interview someone else in the post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed you will ask them 5 questions.

1. Do you prefer being called Banui, Jo, or Jolene?
Honestly, I don't even know. I could probably make a long meta-tastic post about the psychological implications of my name juggling.

2. Tell me about Vienna Teng, anything you like.
Dreaming Through the Noise is my favourite album for starwatching. I have played it alone under the skies twice -- once, far away from any electric lights, huddled on a picnic table with a quilt wrapped all around me. I snuck inside and made a cup of cocoa and stood in front of the cathedral-like window of the lodge we were staying in. There's something about the ephemeral nature of those songs, the way each of them offers a glimpse into someone's story.
 

3. What's your ideal job and why? What did you major in during college?

Oh dear. I have changed my Future Career constantly since I was old enough to know that one was supposed to want to do something when they grew up. When I was five, I wanted to be a missionary-vetrinarian; that quickly gave way to running a house for unwanted animals. These jobs were given up fairly quickly when I realised that I didn't actually like animals all that much. Mostly I've wanted to be a writer, but quite suddenly a few years ago a hunger for filmmaking took hold of me and hasn't let go. When I realised that the things I most want to do with my life are the most unstable, potentially low-paying jobs IN THE UNIVERSE, I desperately began hunting for something I could do that would actually make money while I try to get my foot in the door, and realised that very few things would please me more than being a librarian. (I already have the glasses.) Books! Interaction with people, but not too much! But not too little, or too insignificant! Archiving! Organising! (I like setting things in order, even if my bedroom tells a wholly different tale.) Possibly reading books before they come out! Planning library-related events! Deciding what books to buy! And oh, the courses I would take in librarian school! HISTORY OF PRINTING, I CAN HAS? So, when I go to school next year, this will most likely be the focus of my studies. (Though I am thinking I will just take four years of regular college with emphasis on literature and history, and then a year of graduate school for library science so I can get my degree and be a qualified librarian.) I would also enjoy running a bookshop, possibly baking, and professional free-lance photography.
 

4. What's your favourite book by Madeleine L'Engle?

Two-Part Invention, her autobiography about her marriage. It's one of those books that has changed my life and ways of thinking and percieving and looking-forward in some infinitesimal, incalculable, fundamentally important ways: and it was also the first book to make Madeleine L'Engle real to me. She'd been a favourite writer before; after, she has become my hero. Because of this book I wept when she died.
 

5. Why does your vocabulary sound British?

*laughs* Partially because I am a desperate Anglophile and at least half -- likely more -- of the media I consume is either British or features prominent British characters, and also because most of the books I grew up with were not only British, but half a century old. Even now I keep finding out that certain things that were vicariously huge parts of my childhood no longer exist, no longer exist in quite the same form, or are called by different names. It's only gotten worse since I started reading Harry Potter and watching Doctor Who -- now I'm picking up current English slang, and, because I write fanfiction, I've gotten very good at mimicking it convincingly. It's so fresh and invigorating and fun, the words are, that I can't relegate them only to my writing. :D

Oh dear, the slightly giddy bit of the post-headachey-ness is settling in. I should stop typing before this post becomes very absurd.

Comments

[windandtherain.livejournal.com]

I'm going to look for that book by L'Engle - it sounds very good! :-)

[faeriemaiden.livejournal.com]

Oh, it's gorgeous, and one of the very very few books that has ever made me weepy. Plus, it has fascinating insights into the world of theatre in the 1940s!

[charismitaine.livejournal.com]

Ooh, I'd like to be interviewed, please!

Supernatural = love. Only ten days until the new season!

[faeriemaiden.livejournal.com]

Drat, there is no way I can finish one and two-thirds seasons in ten days! (Well, no, there are ways, but they would require me to be inconveniently anti-social. :p)

1. Visually, what is your favourite book? I don't necessarily mean books with illustrations -- what book has a layout that you just love?
2. What book do you wish you could rewrite?
3. What small, usually unnoticed thing do you love?
4. If you were a word, what word would you be?
5. What is your favourite story trope?

[faeriemaiden.livejournal.com]

...You know what, I take that back. I was up very very late with very caffeiney headache medication last night, and have been sick all day, so...in the last three days I've gotten over halfway through S2. NEVER UNDERESTIMATE THE POWER OF OBSESSION. D:

[everydayjoy.livejournal.com]

Please interview me?

[faeriemaiden.livejournal.com]

1. When you feel the absolute most yourself, where are you?
2. What is your very earliest memory?
3. What smells carry the most associations for you?
4. What little thing do you love that most people don't even notice?
5. Do you or your family have words or phrases that have special significance only to you? Words you've made up, baby mispronunciations, oft-used quotations, et cetera? (My family has a lot of these, and the linguist in me is always fascinated by other people's.)

[everydayjoy.livejournal.com]

Ooh, I love these questions!

[lady-moriel.livejournal.com]

Hm. Maybe I should look into library science for grad school. Seeing as I also have NO EARTHLY IDEA what to do with myself, and I truly don't want to go after a PhD in English, which is where my professors are nudging me.

Ooh ooh, pick me! Interview me! ...Not that I can promise to answer in anything resembling a decent time, but. >_<

Heh, I've meant to do a post about Supernatural for ages too, mostly about why I watch it and heart it even though certain elements disturb me, but as with anything else that promises to be long, I haven't.

[suangelita.livejournal.com]

Started S5 of Angel. Wow. At least that b*****d Connor is gone. I. Hate. Him. :P And I <3 Angel, and I <3 Spike, and I <3 Wesley, and I <3 Lorne, and Fred's awesome.

[faeriemaiden.livejournal.com]

I am one of the five people in fandom who actually likes Connor, although I pretty much want to punch him ALL THE TIME, so. Yep, he's totally a bastard: literally, even. :p

Sheesh, you guys are fast. S5 is totally my favourite, though, although it is also THE SADDEST EVER. YOU WILL SEE. Also, Spike and Angel bickering all the time is COMPLETELY AMAZING. :D

[suangelita.livejournal.com]

He is a bastard and I HATE him. Evil Cordy made me want to slug her, too. And I much prefer Evil Mal to Evil Zoe. All that peace and love and hugs and flowers... *shudders*

Fred rocks. Gunn rocks. I love that Gunn of all people is now SuperLawyer! Ha! And poor Spike being a ghost. And HARMONY being Angel's secretary!! And poor Angel trying to be CEO of Wolfram and Hart but killing all his clients... And Wesley being... WEEEEEEEES. And Lorne being his awesome Host-y self. ;)

The episode where Willow comes to reensoul Angel... OMG. If I didn't know any better I would have thought that Willow and Wesley had a thing for each other! Alyson and Alexis were sooo cute. :D

[faeriemaiden.livejournal.com]

S4 was not my favourite season. :p Although Evil Cordy wasn't supposed to happen quite the way it did, from what I understand; Charisma Carpenter was pregnant and didn't tell the production team until it got really obvious. Maybe it would have turned out better if whatever their original plan was had gotten filmed, I don't know. :p

Oh, you know what else was scary? ANGEL IN THAT YELLOW STRIPEY SHIRT. THAT WAS UNNATURAL AND WRONG.

Hee, Gunn as Super Lawyer is really amusing, and I loved his double-breasted pinstriped suit. :p And you may know that I fangirl Angel most when he is confused and bewildered, so...yeahhhhh. He probably really hates having to wear a tie all the time. "I haven't worn a tie this often since I was EVIL!" And Lorne makes faces of utter despair at him.

OMG THIS SEASON HAS SO MUCH AWESOME WES-NESS IN STORE. Alexis Denisof is really good at angsting and making me cry.

I KNOW RIGHT, THAT WAS HILARIOUSLY ADORABLE. They're giving each other Significant Looks and everything. Silly almost-married people. Oh, and there's this one episode near the middle of S5 with no Wesley in it -- because Alexis Denisof was away getting married to Alyson Hannigan. :D

edit: I never mentioned Spike at all. I feel like a bad, bad fangirl. SPIIIIIKE. POOR INCORPOREAL SPIKE!

[suangelita.livejournal.com]

Okay. I thought Roberto said they planned on the pregnancy. Silly Charisma Carpenter. Now she's stuck in a dumb coma... either kill her or revive her, but comas suck. :P

OMG! THE POPCORN JELLY BEAN SHIRT?!? I thought I was going to die!!!!

Haha. Gunn just rocks. As does Super Lawyer. Just don't get your sleep removed like Lorne. ;) I haven't seen Angel in a tie that I recall, yet... Harmony just didn't eat a guy, haha. Harmony is adorable, and I feel bad for her, even though she is evil...

I wish Wes and Fred could get together... Wes never has good stuff, it's awful! Joss Whedon really hates Wes and Angel. Although Angel *is* the quintessential Joss Whedon character - he can't have a moment of pure happiness. :P

OH I KNOW. They were soooo cute! And the way they talked and kept glancing at each other when other folks were talking, they were so adorable. It was awesome. And the one scene with just the two of them and Alexis Denisof is leaning over Alyson Hannigan - HAHA! Ohhh you mean the episode that just happened with the fake cup that Eve had the guy mention since Wes was on a Leave of Absence (so he was tying the knot with Willow? ;)) and then you find out that Eve's sleeping with LINDSEY of all people (I'm gonna kill him) and this whole crying blood and going insane was really their idea, and poor Angel, I know Spike saved the world and was a hero and has a soul, but I want so much for him to become human because he deserves it... *huggles Angel*

Spike's corporeal now, hehe... Evil Lindsey and Eve's fault, but hey, he's real. Though he didn't go see Buffy. Which I'm kinda happy about because, gosh, I so ship Buffy/Angel, but... I like Gwen. I could be persuaded to ship Gwen/Angel. MAYBE. See, I have this theory that if they're shagging, and she's electrocuting him, he won't have a moment of *perfect* happiness.... ;)

[greyeyedpixie.livejournal.com]

You can interview me if you'd like. :)
I highly recommend studying library science. I love it...my classes are wonderful. :)
English & History are definitely good places to start in your first four years.

[cherise.livejournal.com]

FIRST OF ALL. First of all, I totally thought you were 22-ish and out of college, please excuse my panic attack, I just backtracked through "history of Banui" and you are EIGHT DAYS YOUNGER THAN ME. WOW. Okay.

It's just that last week Ren said you had lived in Boston so I automatically assumed that you had lived there for college and was out, because you were looking for a job, and hi, you sound so mature. And you are so unpretentious.

Anyway. That would be why #3 is worded the way it is. >.>

I'm going to call you Jo! I'm rather fond of a Jo at work, and you have the same spirit she does. though I do like Banui. Where's it from?

That's exactly what I wanted to know about Vienna Teng. ah, thank you.

I'm reading A Circle of Quiet and I love it. I've said before that it's like she encapsulated my soul and all the things I've been going through. :)

On the British thing, I was curious cos I started using British spellings and sayings cos of Harry Potter and Doctor Who got me really familiar with it. :D

Yay, I love these questions! You can ask me if you want -- I know it can be hard seeing as I'm new, so don't feel obligated to. :)

[bonny-kathryn.livejournal.com]

I want to be interviewed, please.

[wanderlight.livejournal.com]

OK, we definitely need to have a talk soon about librarian-ness, 'cause romancandle_ also made a post about it recently, which spurred me to get the contact information for the grad advisor for Library Sciences at my university. (The Library Sciences department is at the top of the Rutherford library, which is this lovely library with four floors of books and a wonderful Reading Room which makes me feel like I am in a proper Old University!) But, um, yes.

I am never really sure whether I should call you Banui or Jolene. ;)

[faeriemaiden.livejournal.com]

I keep having these deeply confusing philosophical thoughts on the nature of names and my name and whether I think of myself as Jolene or Banui and what all of this name dissociation/confusion even means. I am never really sure how I ought to introduce myself to people, even though no-one in "real life" addresses me as Banui.

Yesyesyes, we should talk about librarian-ness sometime! I am still sorting it all out myself, but it is looking as though I could get away with taking a year of library science grad school after proper college (majoring in literature? filmmaking? both?). Oh dear, education is so very confusing; I am so glad I took a year off. D:

[wanderlight.livejournal.com]

This is something I mostly don't tell anyone, but, um, I've been thinking a lot lately that taking a year off and doing everything EXCEPT FOR school -- which pretty much destroys me, so that I need all of summer to recuperate -- would be the perfect thing. And teach me how to actually be a functional person who can perform outside of academia. But it's not really an option. :( So yes, taking year off = Banui is clever!

[take-a-sadsong.livejournal.com]

I want to be interviewed! :)

[faeriemaiden.livejournal.com]

1. If you had to choose one song that sums you up, what would it be?
2. What book feels most like home and safety to you?
3. If you had five dollars right now, what would you use it for?
4. What do you do when you can't sleep?
5. Name one thing that you have done that no-one you know has ever done. (You can be very, very specific! ^-^)