Not With A Bang But A Whimper

[ontology]

Mum had an ultrasound today. I stayed home with the youngers.

Dad called about half an hour ago. The baby has no heartbeat.

(It was the second time in my life I can remember ever having heard him weep.)

I can't even type straight.

I keep thinking, God, you can't do this to her again. She was so excited, so joyful, and what is the meaning in all of this? She doesn't deserve another miscarriage. I keep thinking, please, please, let it be a mistake. Timmy and Heidi don't know; I don't know if Mum and Dad are going to tell them, because we were just going to let them know today that Mum was pregnant. And now this. 

I've seen too much death this year.

Pray for us, please, right now; all of us, but especially Mum.

Comments

[avendya.livejournal.com]

I don't know what to say, other than I'm sorry. Your mother doesn't deserve this, you don't deserve this, your father doesn't deserve this.

You're always in my thoughts and prayers, but now more than ever.

*hugs*

[charismitaine.livejournal.com]

Oh no. I'm so sorry. You and yours are in my prayers and thoughts.

[angelbluekisses.livejournal.com]

oh no...I am so sorry :(
i'll be praying for your family, especially your mom.

[lexiedoh.livejournal.com]

-hugs you tightly and doesn't let go-

I'm sorry, love. I have a lot of things I could say, but none that I will.

I'm praying, darling. I promise.

[ressie-noldo.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. Nobody deserves this, least of all you and your parents.

Not much I can say will make this feel better, but you'll definitely be in my thoughts, and your family.

*hug*

[lady-moriel.livejournal.com]

Oh dear God. I am so, so sorry, mellen. None of you deserved this. And as usual I have nothing to say that might possibly be of any help, so all I can say is this: I love you so much, and I'm praying hard for all of you. I wish I could do something more. (And if there is, somehow, tell me, okay?)

[timetakestime.livejournal.com]

:is crying for your mother, and you, and your brother/sister:

I am so, so sorry, baby. :wishes she could hold you all tight: My mom and I are praying for all of you guys, and we love you so much.

If there's anything I can do, you know where to find me.

[midenianscholar.livejournal.com]

Oh honey! *hugs much*

I know how it is--somewhat. I'm so, so sorry. Praying for you a [i]lot[/i]. I love you.

[i]... You have seen my troubles,
and You care about the anguish of my soul.[/i]
Psalms 31:7

I know this is hard, and, believe me, I'm right with you in questioning Him. I know it seems impossible that there's a reason and that this will all turn out good somehow. I wish that I was with you to hug you and cry with you.

If you need a phone call or something please call me. I'd love to help if I can.

Again, I love you! Praying very, very much.

[trolliepop.livejournal.com]

Oh lord, darling, I'm so sorry. I wish I had magical words that would make it all go away, but I don't. I love you so much, and I hope that things get better for you.

My mom had a miscarriage before me, and even though I've never experienced this directly, I still often find myself feeling sad about it and wondering what it would be like to have an older sister. Sometimes, I even find myself talking to her.

{{{hugs}}}

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